experiments without truth..

I have very few convictions about the strength of my character. I can almost see my friends nodding their heads and saying - "Not without ample reasons".. Mainly coz i try my best not to display extraordinary strength of character or virtues that would awe others.(Like duh!!) But one conviction i had always treasured was about my being a truthful person. And i was thoroughly convinced of it.. until yday..


I woke up. a day like any other day. and i realised that i dint want to go to office.. at least not right then. so i called up my Boss and told him - 'not feelin too great Sir.. so i'll be coming in slightly late'. dis was LIE#1. and then i went right back to sleep. woke up around twelve in d noon and got ready for office. stepped out o home and faced the everyday enemy with a look of fortitude.. the auto guy. One look straight into his eyes as i mumbled - 'Cybergateway'. '40 bucks' pat came the reply.. '30' i retaliated. a few seconds in which he tried to stare me down and i tried to look like i had built in laser devices which would cripple his will. "35" he offered as appeasement. and i shook my head. eventually.. as i took a few steps away from the three-wheeler he rushed to the driver's seat and beckoned to me.. and i went right in. happily. :) for once.. i had won the battle. but sadly.. the war is still on. :( anyways.. this was LIE#2. for i ve never paid mere 30 bucks. and boy!! the elatement of swindling the auto guy of the undeserved 5 bucks!! heaven in itself.. :) and it was on my way to office that i realised..

my definitions of truth and lies are pretty much driven by convenience and the need of the hour. while i would never think of lying to my parents about my grades and academics.. i would easily churn out 5 lies per minute just to ensure that i can go for a trip with my friends.. and i could come up with no less than 10 solid fool-proof lies to keep them out of any idea that i think sidesteps my demarcated area of freedom. this freedom may be anything. i still remember the lies i said to ensure that my parents do not accompany me from Kolkata to Hyderabad when i came to join my current job. :) i told them - "No one's gonna come with their parents" (The fact that my friend's had their entire families along with them, not just their parents, was pushed right under the carpet.)

and with friends. well.. i do not lie. i hide a few stuff which i would rather not have anyone know. i exaggerate at times when i think a story needs some more spice to liven it up.. and yeah.. i say blatant yet believable lies when i have to arrange a surprise for them. this is one set of falsehoods i adore. for it is the bad for good philosophy. and the motivation is pretty much enough to cover up the fact that i lied. but by far this is the most exasperating aspect for my friends.. i can see quite a few sage heads nodding .. (Aana. i'm talking about you here.. just in case. but i just wanted to tell you female.. i never mean no harm. i really don't!! )

the only aspect of truth i really conform to is may be that.. i never do reveal any secrets i'm entrustred with. not even to my closest friends. and this treachery will happen only over my dead body. not sure how i can say that as i'm still alive and typing over here. :) but pretty much, thats how it is.

The whole rest of the truth in me is best quoted by David Roberts when he says in Shantaram - "It is possible to do the wrong things for the right reasons." Just that in my case.. i decide what the right reasons are.. :)